Kimaya Crolla-Younger

Awaken Deeper

Erotic Awakening Process

Sexuality is your birthright and the very foundation of life!


By joining and opening yourself to this process, you are investing in your evolution and that of the planet! The invitation calls you to be rebirthed into a deeper embodiment of your sexual wholeness. 


There are few rites of passage in our culture to celebrate our awakening sexuality, so not only do we end up creating false beliefs about sex that underpin our relationship with life and eros, but how our sexual energy moves in our genitals and body become set as a patterned response that runs on autopilot. NOW is the time to change that! 


This process is designed to re-set your relationship to your sexual energy and ways you use it, with the power to completely transform your life! 


Discovering the qualities and power of the virgin, gives you a fresh way of being, where life becomes a celebration, with an ability to be new in your relationships (both with yourself or with a partner - no matter how long you’ve been together) and in all of life, seeing the world with fresh eyes. 


We tend to think that we ‘lose’ our innocence and purity, but the deeper truth is that these transpersonal qualities are available to us, right now, in fact these qualities are not what we do, but what we are …


The possibilities of what can open for you from this process are endless, but include… 


- Discovering beliefs and attitudes that hold you back sexually

- Claim a ‘rite of passage’ in your nakedness and eros, no matter what your age!

- Discover NEW pathways to erotic pleasure

- Deepen your capacity for pleasure and experience

- Clear layers of sexual guilt and shame

- Loosen your need to control life and relationships

- Awaken to a deeper truth of eros, the Transpersonal sexual body

- Awaken the soulmate within

- Come into a fuller sexual awakening than you’ve known previously

- Dropping deeply into the space of the virgin, one that includes your eros

- ‘In the moment’ coaching in how to be a Master Lover

-  Exploring your inner erotic energy with a witnessing, loving presence

-  Mindful self-pleasuring

-  Accessing vital life force/chi/ sexual energy

-  Awaken Erotic Mindfulness

-  Inner devotion ritual (inner marriage) where you commit to your own erotic devotion

-  Ancestral sexual healing

- Heal unresolved oedipal material

- Release beliefs and patterns of the mother wound that tell us there is something wrong with us

- Awaken the Sacred Sexual Body

- Awaken a new level of self worth

- Transform our vision of ourselves


Note that this process needs to be booked in a triad. You can book in a three, or if you are a couple, and wish to find a third, please contact me on [email protected] 


A brief note on Healing Sexual Shame. With shame, our sexuality is divided, separated from the fullness of our being. With division, we sit in the divide, have sex in the divide, which keeps it separate…but we also don’t really know how to embrace it. What really points us in the direction of fullness and wholeness, is not focusing on the shame, but receiving the missing experience of being welcomed into our sexual blossoming.


Evoking the Transpersonal qualities embodied in the virgin has nothing to do with how many sexual encounters we have had. The sexual virgin in us has the qualities of singleness, presence and profound inner freedom.


The virgin resides in our essential nature, before any experience. They are not given to the entanglement that characterizes most sexual relationships, whether they be between long term partners or in sexual flings. Their love is for the Beloved within, who manifests as the beloved in another body.


A Note On The ‘G’ Word – Gender

Below I speak of man and woman. Gender is THE most deeply conditioned aspect of ourselves. If you are transgender, or gender fluid, and are taking part in this process, for you, being called and welcomed into your gender, is going to be particularly powerful in the awakening.

 

For many women exploring their sexuality, I find them unconsciously trapped in a virgin-whore split. The split between women’s sacredness (as represented by the Virgin Mary) and their sexuality (as represented by the ‘whore’ Mary Magdalene) runs deep in the collective psyche of women. We have grown up with a fundamental distrust of our sexual desire and of the goodness of our sexuality. After all, we have been told that it was Eve who bit the apple.


It is time for women to reclaim the sacred essence of their sexuality, to return to their own sexuality in virginal innocence - and to proudly claim the inherent goodness of their sexuality. This happens through a return into their sexual bodies. The journey back in is subtle, tender and exquisite. 


For men, the journey is a little different. Things become sexualised rather quickly due to the collective psyche of man, when in fact before that happens, there is a step of being welcomed, seen, witnessed that needs to happen…as beautifully described by this 65 year old man who took part in the process "This was a beautiful experience. It gave me a clearer realisation as to how little my sexuality was celebrated, it was more assumed, but to be ignored because the only recognised expressions of sexuality was in “being a man” in the sense of not showing feelings and being tough, or masturbating. The He-man toughness terrified me and the second was jeered at and regarded as smutty although we all did it. Exploring my body in this exercise I "discovered" my chest hair and the memory that as a 16 yr old [ before I had body hair,] thinking I wasn't man enough to have a hairy chest, when the reality is that it is a fairly late secondary sexual characteristic.. in the exercise I realised that this was the heart area of my body and it led to a sense of my man’s heart which was not given real space and recognition in adolescence. Doing it as a trio with two women, one of whom was my partner, was wonderfully endorsing and affirming, especially as we had all felt our sexuality ignored or squashed as adolescents." Nat


Holiness

Embracing the virginal quality in yourself means accepting your own holiness. You are an embodiment of the divine. Can you accept that? Can you open to the idea that your sexuality as a human may be a gateway of awakening? Holiness also means wholeness – feeling yourself as whole, one with the universe, resplendent, full, even if you are on your own.


The great teacher, J Krishnamurti, makes it very clear in his book, Facing a world in Crisis:  We can only be a channel for the awakening of the world if we are willing to stand alone. Being holy means being willing to stand in the light of truth even if all your friends desert you.


In the Greek tradition, the goddess Artemis is the Virgin goddess. She lives in nature and loves the forest, yet she is an excellent hunter. All of creation respects her, and the world knows that she will never be owned by anyone.   Thomas Moore  (1998:70) says about Artemis: “Although she is the most virginal of the goddesses, Artemis is not asexual.   She embodies a special kind of sexuality where the accent is on individuality, integrity and solitude.” 


If you can maintain the quality of holiness in your relationships, then you too can be a force for transformation and deep love there. Know that your essence can never be owned, and that your value is not determined by whether people “want” you. 


Finding the pure power of the virgin requires a clear discerning in us. Let us use her archetype to call us into the fullness of our beauty, rather than into “hiding” in a holiness that separates us from our sexuality. 


So many of us have a strong desire - a yearning - to let life, love, sensuality and pleasure flow through us with more ease. And yet, there are blocks in the way that keep us from the flow that we know is possible - even if we have never experienced it in our lives.


What happens in the Erotic Awakening Tantric Salon?

It's a very deep dive. After scheduling in the salon and receiving your payment, I forward you the Erotic Awakening Exploration Workshop...then we meet on Skype to prepare for the day long session. A week or so after the session, you will have another Skype session with me. The purpose of this process is to catalyze your awareness to the next level of what you are ready for. How this happens is multi-dimensional! You will be guided by me, through a process, and you will support, and be supported in your triad as the day unfolds. 


Nothing happens quickly…we will slow right down; as slow as the pulse of the earth at times…giving the space that your energetic, emotional and physical bodies need. Your nervous system and your energetic field are invited to relax and to open. Whilst this is a process, some of it will be highly individualized. I use a huge range of modalities, and don’t want to give too much away, but the day will include,


• Discussion in your triad

• conscious bodywork,

• breathwork,

• guided meditation, ritual and ceremony

• shamanic techniques,

• bioenergetic movement techniques,

• Inner-child exploration

• enactment, embodiment, roleplay, movement and sounding

• venting and other forms of emotional exploration

• erotic mindfulness 

• nudity

• self-pleasuring 


The Triad

It is significant that you are in a triad with two other beings. Particularly in the context of sexuality, intimacy and love. You may be surprised to notice particular ancient dynamics appearing during the day; be open to this. Treat your two fellow explorers with curiosity, attention and understanding. See anywhere that you judge them and avoid giving advice. Commit to their next step, as you commit to your own. If you are going through this process with a partner(s) or close friends, I invite you to not be ‘familiar’ with them. Don’t think that you know them already. You will discover the meaning no doubt during the process! 


There is no sexual interaction between the three of you. This day is about Awakening more of YOUR natural sexuality and inherent Transpersonal qualities of the Virgin (a Virgin NOT separated from sexuality), and clearing the blocks to this. 


In your three, there are particular structures that take place either at the same time, or individually. When the process is individual, you are either supporting one of your triad, or being supported. Supporting and being supported is an important part of the process. What is hugely beneficial here, is to learn how it is to be with another when we’re not just focused on our own pleasure or orgasm. I will coach you very specifically here; it’s training in how to be a Master Lover! 


The investment for this process is £350 per person.

Testimonials...

"This was a beautiful experience. It gave me a clearer realisation as to how little my sexuality was celebrated, it was more assumed, but to be ignored because the only recognised expressions of sexuality was in “being a man” in the sense of not showing feelings and being tough, or masturbating. The He-man toughness terrified me and the second was jeered at and regarded as smutty although we all did it. Exploring my body in this exercise I "discovered" my chest hair and the memory that as a 16 yr old [ before I had body hair,] thinking I wasn't man enough to have a hairy chest, when the reality is that it is a fairly late secondary sexual characteristic.. in the exercise I realised that this was the heart area of my body and it led to a sense of my man’s heart which was not given real space and recognition in adolescence. Doing it as a trio with two women, one of whom was my partner, was wonderfully endorsing and affirming, especially as we had all felt our sexuality ignored or squashed as adolescents." Nat


“We are gently landing after the wonderful few days at Osho Leela. So lovely to meet you and your power of the Virgin workshop moved mountains for both of us.” A married couple 


"For me, the workshop gave me the chance to talk about personal events that I had never shared with anybody else. As a result, I now feel more open and I thank you for holding the space." This participant had a profound kundalini awakening at the end of the process.”


“A transformative experience indeed. Felt so empowered I went back home in my sarong  :P Thank you Kimaya for creating such a beautiful safe space.”  Surya


I love what my assistant,  Dhyanesh, said to me during this process at a festival, "I've seen some things in my time, but NEVER anything like this...I feel like I am witnessing Gods and Goddesses in the Heavens". This gives a sense of the purity of the eros being birthed. 


A testimonial from Turiya, who took part in this process recently...

"This workshop was a surprise that I hadn't looked for, but it turned into a delight that I now cherish. The title has only meant something to me now, as I sit down to write some feedback about my experience of the process.


My invitation to take part in the workshop came from a surprise source. I started that particular day with a conscious longing to be "wanted." A short while later, a woman I barely knew asked if I'd like to join her and her husband, to participate in whatever unknown experience was on offer. With a little nervous hesitation, I accepted their offer gladly as they directly met my expressed desire for the day, to be wanted.


The details become a little blurred after that - besides the moments of Erotic Devotion. Without wanting to give too much away...I experienced a profound time of slow and delicious erotic devotion within my threesome. And in the midst of that, I broke through an old wound that used to be tied up in a pretty erotic fantasy I had, and as it played out, I saw something that restored me to a place of childhood innocence that over-flowed with a burst of laughter. I can't fully explain how, but the piece of my personal puzzle that was touched in that moment, restored a part of my virgin self that in her innocence, had been lost in shame for many years. Thank you Kimaya x"


"This was a gentle yet very powerful way of finding places where I am stuck and me and my fellow participants just being there with those places, a wonderful commitment to make to my body. Thank you. I encourage anyone thinking of doing this process as I feel like it was a deep archetypal type environment where a lot got stirred and explored but, as I said before, in a gentle way. " David. 


One woman's testimonial from April 2017...
What seems to be the biggest impact of the process in the way you experience yourself and life?

I feel much more grounded when experiencing any emotion, more allowing of my feelings in whatever shape they come up. Also interestingly, I went to a conscious  dance and I was looking at everyone in the eye, I noticed this specially with men, I was more playful like a no longer saw them as a threat, it was a beautiful feeling, just to dance, see into the other person with no fear, or even if fear was there I was able navigate through it. I’m getting a real sense of a new Power by allowing my Vulnerability. Every time I’m vulnerable I feel stronger afterwards.

How was it for you supporting in your triad? 
Sometimes I’d find a natural flow, other times it was my own stories running the show. I did feel a big sense of respect and honouring my companions, even if I knew I was running an old tape (ie the man felt distant, the other woman felt like she was taking all the attention), I managed to stay aware of that. When I was in the groove it was powerful, I felt so natural, like I’ve done this before in a temple, with priest / goddesses, people would come for healing, and we would channel sexual/love energies for this purpose. In the groove, there was no judgments, no stories, in fact, there was not really a ‘me’, ‘I’ or ‘them’ – it felt like Love was doing all the work through the body.  

Our sexuality, if we are being real, is a place where vulnerability and power intertwine so intricately. Say something of your experience of this from the process… 
I feel like the space that I was given to fully experience fear, allow it and letting it shift was very powerful. The fact that it was witnessed was incredibly healing. I really felt like ‘it’s safe to be vulnerable’, it’s ok to be seen, and in there I felt an allowance of my whole sexual self 

What did you discover, anything new about yourself? 

How natural I felt being naked and feeling my whole body, how powerful I felt when I allow my sexuality to be witnessed in the whole range from tender love to passionate heat almost destructive.

Since the workshop I’ve been feeling more whole. I express my feelings, even fully expressed my anger in an not-destructive closing down way (that’s a new one for me!!), in fact, I felt closer to the person once all anger was expressed. Also when friends are in crisis around me I don’t get sucked in to their issues or try to rescue them, whilst I still remain loving to them and to myself.